Jinxy

[TEA] Simon Tam & Kaylee by Amy Zen - Firefly | Fandom tea - I drink a crazy amount of fandom teas from adagio. It's ridiculous. I was perusing the Firefly blends when the Simon Tam tea caught my eye and I stuck it on an order. I bought it thinking it would be a fun one to have laying around, but then a few weeks later my damn bag was gone. WHERE'D MY FREAKIN TEA GO?? So I replenished it and got the Kaylee tea too because they are in a ship and you get a discount etc. And OH BOY her tea is flippin awesome too! These teas do actually embody the characters, like whoa. I just re-ordering every time. They are both on the sweet side (Simon is peachy/ginger and Kaylee is strawberries/cream) and totes fulfill my no-guilt dessert cravings. Such good teas! Yay fandom teas.

[FIC] Sell Your Body To The Night by dsudis - Teen Wolf | Explicit | 122k | Derek/Stiles, Stiles/OMCs - Duuuuuuuuuude. 122k words of underage hooker!fic with fisting, watersports, angst and misunderstandings. This is like the perfect fic for me. Ticks all my boxes. I loved it so much I podficced it. It took me 10 days to record, but I slayed the beast. Honestly, everyone knows Dira right? You know what a good writer she is. She fucking delivers on this fic. The beginning was great! The rising action/falling action, the climax, the ending. All of it was spot-fucking-on.

[PODFIC] Given In Evidence by erica_schall - Sherlock | Explicit | 12+ hours | Sherlock/Watson - Do you have a podficcer that you listen to because their voice just really does it for you every.single.time? Yea? Me too. It's Erica. So I have to be upfront say that I'm not into Sherlock, or even read it. I had never read this fic before downloading this podfic. But when Erica posted the final chapter, I decided to have a go at it. And it was the best decision I've ever made. I've listened to this podfic probably 5 times now. It accompanies me to work and driving and to the gym. And I have all my favorite bits picked out when I need a go-to comfort bit. Erica's voice is so precious to me, like I can't even put into words how much I love her reading style and the just power of her rumbling tones. At times in her reading, my body has a physical reaction to the sounds she makes, the tone of her voice and they way she says certain words, her cadence. I often wish I smoked, just so I could have a fucking cigarette after listening to her. I just love her a lot okay? She's the bee's knees. And she made me love a fanwork I would never have looked at twice if it weren't being narrated by her.

[FANART] Little Red Has Pointy Teeth by daunt - Teen Wolf | Digital | Derek/Stiles - I have the purse, the print, the pillow the mug and it's my current desktop background. I really love this art. I'm not sick of looking at it and I keep buying it in different forms because I want to take it with me everywhere! I got the tote purse, but then literally carried it until it had holes. I think it was one of the first twoof arts I saw on tumblr back when I was drifting into the fandom and I attribute it to my attraction to exploring this ship, which is my main ship now. Stiles as the big bad wolf and Derek as red. It's so perfect. And sexy.

In honor of Day 6, I have written and performed for you 6 Teen Wolf Explicit Derek/Stiles haikus:)

Download: MP3 [1.6 MB]
Length: 00:01:46

Alrighty, gonna do snowflake again this year. I thought it was pretty fun last year.
I had to go see what I wrote last year for this one, so I didn't repeat myself. But then again maybe that's a testament if I do repeat myself. I must admit I have a hard time rec'ing myself. I can't even say myself when people ask for podfic recs on twitter in my fandom for which I've produced something stupid like 70 podfics for. Anyway, here are fanworks:  

1. Podfic | Tiny Houses | Teen Wolf | Explicit To be honest, I will probably put this on my list every year. I will probably have it etched into my tombstone with a link. I wish we could pin our favorite fanworks to the top of the list on AO3 so that people will know that this is the project that I like the most, and the one that defines me as a creator, the thing I am most proud of. It's no longer my longest project, but it's the one I would like to be known for. Also, when I'm having a bad day I go and look at the kudos on this one and it makes my shitty day a whole lot less shitty. 
2. Fic | Mating Games Fics | Teen Wolf | All Explicit I sort of just touched on this on my year end wrap up post. But I totally went out of my comfort zone last year and wrote stuff for the Mating Games LJ challenge. And though, I don't consider myself a writer at all, I had a really good time doing it and don't think the stuff I wrote was all that awful. I was sort in love with the idea of doing a Teen Wolf fusion with one of my favorite Nick Cave songs, Where The Wild Roses Grow because I love that record and I love dark fic. So Probably out of the 6, I'm most in love with The Weeping Boy. I also podficced it. It's got some MCD in it, so I'd say most people stayed as far away from it as they could, but it's something totally underapprecated because of themes, and ridiculously romantic in a macabre sort of way. I love it a lot okay?
3. Podfic | As Sweet As The Blood On Your Lips | Stoker / Luther crossover | Explicit I put this on the list because nobody knows it exists! I don't often podfic femslash, although I read it quite a bit and the pairing on this is about as rarepair as you can get. Alice Morgan/India Stoker. Both sociopaths. Both killers. Put them together and BAM insta-sexy! So I found this fic and got all kinds of excited. Got permission and read the shit out of it. AND what do you know. Practically nobody listened to it. HA! That's just the way it is. I still really love this one though. I'm so proud of it right down to the coverart and music I chose. I really wish people knew about both these characters so that they understood why it is so perfect.

Okay. Gonna go slink off and hide for a while now. xoxo

Been listening to Transgender Dysphoria Blues non-stop for over a week. It is honestly one of the best records I've ever heard in all my 33 years. I can't get over how relevant and beautiful and honest and life changing this little 10 song record is. Laura Jane Grace writes lyrics that just fucking speak to my soul, okay? I've listened to like every Against Me! record through the years and they don't touch the honesty and emotion that this record does. Like seriously, I could take this record to the proverbial desert island and be happy to listen to it for the rest of my life. 

Fucking A+++++++++++ Fuck.

<3

So, remember that time I said I wasn't going to podfic anymore?





Yeah.

I lied.

I'm a lying liar from Liarsville.

I'm back babies! I'm recording again. Also, I have like over 100 hours of raw files to edit. So i'll be posting new works again. Finally posting projects I've been talking about for a long time. (Most of them on my to-podfic page on tumblr. except the ones other people have already posted, because you probably know I really really really really dislike repods.)

Thanks to those of you that stuck with me during the hiatus and listened to me cry about all my shitty anons.

luh ya cuties

This is just a little post to let you all know that I have retired from making podfic.

I  am no longer going to record fics. I'm just too tired of all the hateful messages and unsolicited criticism. It's no longer fun anymore. 

I've spent hundreds and hundreds of hours making podfics and it kills my spirit every time I get hate.

So I'm not going to spend one more second doing something that no longer gives me joy. I'm quitting now so that I don't rage quit fandom all together. I still want to enjoy fic and my friends. I still want to archive and listen to podfic and get joy from it. 

To the authors that I've asked for permission, I'm so very sorry I never got to make your thing. Thank you so much for being open to podfic and giving me and others the opportunity to record your work.

To my auction winners who are due podfic. I will be paypal'ing you a refund as soon as my tax return gets to me in a few weeks time. I'm really sorry I couldn't fulfill those for you.

Thanks to everyone that has been cool with me. I've made some great friends, and I'm not going anywhere. 

<3 Jinxy

Day Thirty: Post About Anything You Want

Well, as usual, this is a day late. I had a hellish few days at work because of Black Friday and all the related shenanigans. I don't really have any idea of what to blog about, so I guess I'll just spew stuff at you.

ReMoPodMo finished:) I had a very productive month. I produced 12 hours of podfic, 2 completed stories and I recorded another 4 because I was in the zone. So I clocked about 100 hours of podfic production between recording (28 hours of raw files), editing, making coverart, pre-reading, final listen-thrus, uploading, posting and all the other things we do.

My podfic 1year anniversary was the 23rd. I really wanted to publish my long project (which will be posted either tonight or tomorrow) on that day, but LIFE happened. I've been working my ass off the whole month and sometimes I'm just too tired to do everything I want to do. 

I haven't been reading much, but I have about 30 open fics, a lot of them TW Fall Harvest fics to read. I'm going to go easy in December. I'm a bit burnt out from ReMo. So I plan on doing a lot of reading in December. As far as regular reading, I did finish Temeraire #3 and #4 as well as both of Jay Northcote's books.

I've been watching a lot of tele during my podficcing breaks. Dancing With The Stars and The Voice were my guilty pleasures. DWTS ended, and The Voice has only a few weeks left. Downton also ended, leaving me engrossed in Elementary, Sons Of Anarchy, Bones, AHS:Coven, and Reign. I'm not sure if I'm going to continue with the latter though, because it has yet to really hook me. I also caught up on Supernatural S8 and have, for the first time ever, become current with the watching of the show. So I finally know what everyone is talking about. It's so weird. 

I haven't watched any films at all lately. If you'd have asked me like 2 years ago if that was possible, I would have laughed in your face. There was a time when all I did is watch movies. Back in the Blockbuster days. But yea, I think I'm over it. ALSO. Blockbuster announced they are closing their remaining stores. A part of me jumped for joy since they royally fucked me. Then the other part of me was sad for all the people still working there that are about to go through what I did. Also, all of those childhood memories of going to the video store...it's all very sad. 

I think in the next few days I'm going to do an analysis of my first year of podfic production. I looked over my spreadsheet the other day and I know I produced 70+ hours in year 1, but I would really like to look at the whole picture. Look at downloads/kudos/comments/length/fandom etc. I know people usually do an end of the year wrap up, so maybe I will count those first few weeks of 2012 and do my end of year/first year all rolled into one. 

Um, what else?? My newest obsession is Stilinskicest. But really, that's not surprising. ShameOTP blog has been a breath of fresh air in my daily internet routine. Bless Yue for inviting me to it. (I'm not sure if it's a secret thing, but I see other people in my twitter timeline talking about it, so I'm *assuming* it's okay to mention). Blessblessbless the authors writing for that ship. 

I think I'm going to record some Buster/Timmy Baseball RPF fic next. Anna_unfolding is a goddess and made the best podfic I've ever heard in my whole damn life, and now I have a mad hankering to do one too. <3

I ate a guinness caramel chocolate bar last night, and I think my tastebuds had orgasms. 

Ohhh. And I finally finished making my 1000 origami cranes. I've been folding them for about 4-5 months I think. Usually to distract myself or while I'm watching tele. Now I have to decide what to do with them. I wrote my wish on the 1000th one and folded it up and mixed it in the box. So I hope it comes true. 

This 30 day journal meme has been fun. It's nice to know that people are reading them, perhaps learning more about me. I don't think I'm terribly interesting or anything, but I am an open book and love to share. I enjoy reading everyone's journals and comments. I quite like my little place in the DW world. Next time I think I'm going to do a 30 day photography blog challenge. It came to my attention how many of these blog challenges their are, and weirdly I quite enjoyed ending my day over on Dreamwidth, posting these little daily tidbits. 

That's all i've got for now. Thanks for reading:)

~Deidra/Jinxy


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Day Twenty-Eight: Dreams
Write about a dream you've had recently or a recurring dream you've had in your life.


I had 2 recurring dreams that started when I was younger. I don't remember the last time I dreamt either one of them, it's probably been years? So I'm not sure if that counts, but at one point in my life they happened regularly. 

The first one started when I was a young child. In the dream I'm in an underwater tank/pool of some sort. I'm dressed in a frilly blue dress (kind of like a doll outfit). I remember--even going into adulthood--that me in the dream was still a child even though I aged for the decade or so that I dreamed it. Also, it was not unusual to me that I breathed water in the dream, that part seemed natural. 
So, the tank didn't open but was large like an olympic swimming pool, and it went deep, like a hundred feet down. There was light in the water, like the surface was near, but deep enough down that I knew I couldn't swim to the top. Deep in the water there were walls that had cages attached to them. They were a prison holding other people, like me. In the dream the cage doors would open and I'd have to swim into the water and try to collect candies (Like M&Ms or Skittles) that were floating. I don't remember eating the candy, but I remember a sense of urgency to collect the candy or perhaps I wouldn't eat. Then when everyone was struggling to get the candy, sharks would be released from tubes in the walls and they would come try and eat us. I would always wake up when I was trying to get back to my cage and I had a shark coming at me. I don't remember feeling like I was caught, but I remember the panic/anxiety of thinking that I was going to die. 


My second recurring dream started when I was a teenager. The dream always started in my bedroom. I would walk a long corridor into my kitchen. Now the house I grew up in had a hallway, but this was like 10x longer in my dream. All the doors to the rooms would be closed as well, and we always left the doors open to every room in my house, so it was really eerie. When I'd get to the end of the hallway I'd have to unlock 20 or so locks on the door opening into the kitchen. When I entered the kitchen my father would be there, shirtless smoking a cigar and sitting at the breakfast nook table. He'd be on a stool, dangling his feet. I'd then ask him where the smoke in the kitchen was coming from, and he'd tell me to turn around as see for myself. When I turned, Hitler was standing at the main stove, stirring a huge vat of something cooking with a big wooden spoon. I'd go up to the vat and look down into it and see that all of my dogs were being cooked. I wouldn't see their faces, but I would see their fur twirling around in the soup. I would then wake up. (BTW, I had 7 Lhasa Apso's while I was growing up, and they were the ones in the soup).

SO there you have it. I have no idea if they mean anything, or what it says about me. But those fuckers haunted me for years and years. 

Day Twenty-Five: Favorite Quote

Man...I'm seriously over thinking this, because I have so so so many favorite quotes from writers, books, tv shows, movies, songs, fic....I just don't know what to put. 

I guess it sort of changes with my mood...but right now, in this moment, I really like this quote:



"The secret of joy is the mastery of pain."
--- Anais Nin